doll's blog

3/23/2024 12:36 am

God is telling me stay off my phone, I deleted all social media off of it for a while now. I still feel a little addicted to the internet from being so used to it for so long so I tend to surf out of habit but everyday I'm feeling more inclined to quit using it.

I feel God wants me to do something more productive with my life. Plus the hate I've been getting from online stalkers who knew of me in real life. Staying offline would have to force these losers to say it to my face instead lmao but ofc they won't

I just feel God is calling this for me so I can be more protected & also because I'm not meant to be online when most big sites are ran with so much ads, bots, & rage-inducing content since rage-inducing gets more interactions. It's so evil & greedy

I've liked making music. It was so fun as a hobby. I feel a little lost in life in terms of productivity but I'm working on it with God as this is what is wanted from me. To stop procrastinating & stop other negative things bringing me down & blocking me from fulfilling my God given purpose. Which I still don't know what it exactly is even if I've gotten some answers before, I still feel so unsure & confused but everyday I am feeling more inclined towards leaving social media & toxic internet media & wanting to do something better.

I've been playing video games in the midst of this transitonal period in my life. From social media more towards just gaming. But even then it's starting to feel... lacking. Like I'm just using it to fill the empty slot for now.

Also getting a new computer on the way which maybe wasn't helpful for my goals lol but it will be fun to play with friends sometimes. ♥ It would be better to do that than more harmful things. & it can just be for occasional use. for fun with friends so i don't feel so alone or isolated while playing online, only using it for connecting w real life friends thru it.

There is so much I want to improve. Ik I haven't been a perfect person but ppl need to really check themselves before being quick to judge others. At least I'm not out here like them usin the internet to harass attack & lie on ppl. Like literally these ppl were constantly on all my social media pages just ready to type multiple paragraphs like. Ok.